Nothings ever simple

Hey all,

Its crazy that Matt and I will be getting married in about 4 months!!! Let me tell you, this is some freaking experience. As a child I never really day dreamed about my wedding. It just wasn't a priority but here we are, 128 days away. I dreamed about love but never anything larger than that. Some people think I forced Matt into this... in fact, Im going to put it out there... Blair is telling people I forced Matt into this. Forcing Matt to marry me... humm, I believe that happens when people get pregnant. Im not pregnant and most certainly didnt make Matt buy a ring. But while we are talking about getting pregnant, how would you feel if you heard your soon-to-be father-in-law was taking bets on when when you would get knocked up? LOL I want kids eventually and will have kids when matt and I are ready. Its not a joke and it shouldnt be said from someone with such a rocky relationship because now I want to go out and get knocked up just BECAUSE lol. I wont of course but when matt and I cross that bridge, I now know how his effing father feels about it lol. Oh well, its our life and our decisions.

Since we r the first couple to actually get married, planning this wedding is a lot harder because we are figuring it all out without the assistance of a prior wedding example. You'd think that planning a wedding would be greatest event ever but I often think about just eloping so people can back the eff off it. You'd think people would be happy for you but a few people won't be. Its a time where you really discover who loves you and who doesnt. Don't get me wrong, I dont give a flying fuck about those ass holes and I am soaking in every minute of this special event. Its just annoying because it doesnt make sense why everyone cant just be excited for you. For example, my mother is a bitch. She will not be at the wedding because she's a bitch and has done unforgivable things to me and my family. I feel NO shame or guilt not inviting her because she has ruined some of the most important days of my life already and will and is trying to ruin this for me too. To her, I say fuck you. To the people like her, I also say fuck you and hope you get massive diarrhea so badly you shit your pants in front of your so called friends. The people who are present at the wedding will know who is missing and will ask me why they aren't there. I am going to LOVE telling them why because the people missing will look like a bigger ass than they already are. My mothers family is going to be there and they ALL KNOW who she is and why shes not there. My sister may not be in the wedding because my mother refuses to buy her a dress.... and Im not buying it so she wont be a bridesmaid. This is suppose to hurt me? Thats my moms point.... but never play chicken with me because I wont budge. I refuse to buy her a dress because my mother hasnt done SHIT for us in the last 5 years and honestly, my sisters a bit of a bitch to us. What my mom doesnt anticipate is how I wont budge and Nicole wont be in the wedding... Nicole can get pissed at my mom, but not me. Nicole doesnt really want to be in the wedding anyway and Im perfectly ok with that. Nothing is going to ruin this for us. So to those who wish pain and difficulty on us... fuck you. LOL I dont have time for people who dont give a shit about us... I have a wedding to plan and only people with loving energy will b there.

Let's talk FLOWERS :) Any suggestions out there? Flowers is an area we are willing to cut down some, so they need to be cheapish. Im going to be checking out some places this weekend and will see how I do. In addition to flower stores, we have an appointment with the priest on Monday :) I'm excited because we r going to be picking out readings and music and stuff like that. Its a cool feeling because until recently, planning this wedding only felt like planning a dream that probably wouldnt come. But now, now its happening and nothing is stopping us. I told everyone originally that they needed to just go with my plan. We are responsible people and make good choices. I like to jump into things with my eyes closed... thats what I did when I chose La Salle... I didnt know wtf I was going to study or how I would pay it off, but I just knew Id be ok. And I was right.

Id like to open this blog for suggestions. Id love to hear tips about flowers. Id love to hear how other people cope with wedding drama. Id love to hear any suggestions/tips/stories from anyone else about your wedding or a wedding you have been to. Thanks for listening, have a freaking awesome night. YAY Friday :)